The Lamb of God Met Me with Mercy

We have been in a heavy season these last few months. Four kids six and under, a pregnancy that has been the hardest on my body yet, and a mysterious illness my husband has been dealing with since early fall. I was overwhelmed, sad, and scared. I stopped opening my Bible. I stopped doing my devotional. I could not get anything out of Mass. I told myself it was because of the kids and the constant disruption, but really it was my hardened heart.

While my husband was in the hospital, I went to confession and admitted that I was feeling hopeless. Little did I know that was only the tip of the iceberg. As the months went on, my exhaustion grew along with my hopelessness. I went from rarely crying to crying multiple times a day, which was a shock to say the least.

On New Year’s Day, my husband and I were able to go to Mass alone. It was the first time in recent memory that we both sat through the entire Mass. There was no crying baby to take into the hall, no toddler begging for endless snacks, no one insisting they needed to go to the potty. I fought back tears the entire Mass, despondent and completely closed off in my heart.

Then “Agnus Dei” came from the choir loft. The tears began to well up behind my eyes. “Qui tollis peccata mundi.”

I do not know what to say other than that in that moment, the Lamb of God, who takes away the sins of the world, broke open my heart. He heard my desperate cries. He met me in my despair and hopelessness. My prayers weren’t perfect, they weren’t even words, all I had left to give were my tears. And yet He had mercy on me.

This story became the quiet heartbeat behind my most recent collection. It was born from a season of exhaustion, surrender and the unexpected mercy I encountered when I had nothing left to offer. Each piece is rooted in that moment of being met by God in my hopelessness, a reminder that even when our hearts feel closed and our faith feels thin, grace still finds us and peace is still freely given.

I hope this collection brings you unimaginable peace in the hard moments. I hope they serve as a reminder of God’s faithful & unending love for his children.

Xo-Kate